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2:46AM.

All of a sudden, i thought of a real, important resolution for this new year.

Start to feel that being copied is a form of FLATTERY instead of getting pretty darn MAD about it.

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Was so bored at home so i decided to go out and get some stuffs for myself. Wanted to try out Shills-Dust it for a very long time and finally bought it. It really is amazing, but at the same time it makes your hair feels like you have styled it with gel/hairspray when it’s only powder.

Nonetheless, it makes you look good so why not

Bought this pink sponge too. I don’t use foundation but it’s cute! Could be useful to create nude lip effect though

(Not all are from sasa)

Look. It’s all pink. And it wasn’t even on purpose. Anyway, i’ve looked for the lipstick for a rather long time already. Other than nude lipstick, i also love Barbie Pink/Dolly Pink lipstick (matt) and i’ve finally found it!

Okay that’s it! I’m going to Chenqi’s house tomorrow to accompany her bake then off to Bugis to get my magazines.

Bye everyone!

*craving for macdonalds*

We are all growing up, all moving on.

Another of CherlynHope’s long story. (Note: There’s a new post below this one)

Do you all realise? We are all growing up. Turning 17 this year, 18 the next and very fast we’ll be adults.

Does it ever strike you that we’re all going on so quickly..? Think of the day you just entered Secondary school and became that little secondary 1 girl/boy. You feel so big and grown up because you are finally out of Primary School. You make new friends, get into the wrong company and slap yourself awake after that.

Well, at least THAT happened to me~

Don’t really wish to elaborate on it. I was glad i found the love of Christ at that moment, God brought me back to the right track. There i was, innocent and naive. Makes me cringe when i think back to the silly girl back then.

Hmm so years passed. Getting good grades slowly became a routine and i trained myself to listen to class even while sleeping, hahaha! And speeding for homeworks at the same time, as little mistakes as possible. When i start studying, I can go on being studious for weeks. But when i stop, I ignore any work for days and usually have a HARD time dragging myself to back where i am supposed to be.

It’s like the world just spun so quickly and zoom! 4 years passed since 2005 and Now at 2010, I am awaiting for the big result day, waiting for a new school, waiting for new friends.

And i realised, hey – we are all growing up. We are not longer the little girls that care only about do-i-look-cute-today or i-wanna-buy-a-pink-bag!!!! or damn-that-guy-is-hot-omg. There are actually things that MATTER. Things that are IMPORTANT. Things that we have to PRIORITIZE.

That day someone asked me my age. And i was about to say 16 when i thought for a moment and went like, Er.. turning 17 this year.

And i whispered, omg im 17………..

Yeah, i guess you get this feeling whenever you realise you’re out of the sweet 16 category.

We all have to move on. I am slightly reluctant to. But 85% of me knows that my future is gonna be awesome.

Random Pictures.

Went to eat Sakae Sushi for dinner (Don’t really like SakaeS, Suki Sushi is like a thousand times better) and we tried ordering this new dish. I forgot the name but it’s Salmon and it looks nothing like the picture in the Menu and worst is, it tastes like lime+lemon+vinegar+wrinkled fish skin+rotten banana+Vomit all together .

Yes this is the culprit. Don’t Order It!!!

So.. i did my nails just today in the afternoon and this time, i settled for something sweet and simple.

Pink overall with a floral ribbon only on my thumb. (I made the ribbon myself; it’s really simple.)

I know the previous one only lasted for a few days… but my itchy fingers LOVE to pluck and fiddle with the 3D fruits so, at least the current one has nothing for me to pluck

Ok lastly,

My piggies~ This little sweetheart here is SnowWhite.

And they are soooooooooooooo cute, cuter and cuter everyday! And they LOVE each other, see~

Their little love story.

好想你。。

Sometimes i wonder if anybody ever reads my long post

Unconditional love never fails to touch my heart and make me tear.

Some things affect me so much that i don’t know how to control myself when it happens.

It’s not like i want it or it comes natural. I don’t know how does being able to lead every day life normally feels like anymore.

Is it obvious that my mind is having a war even when i appear so superficially normal and peaceful?

It happens (i would say) 65% of the time whenever i am quiet and seem to be staring into space.

I’m too confused about everything that’s happening to me.

I think of a lot of things. Everything i see, i don’t glance and forget. Those images seem to be reflexly captured in my mind, transformed into a phantasmagoria of scenes and chosen right on spot to pop up in my mind.

And i would give in then start to think.

I don’t know. It just happens like this.

I don’t understand a lot of things. And i really hope one day, someone would sit down with me and explain everything to me. Just hopefully i’ll be convinced.

Like why do looks, appearance and size matters so much when all of that are just temporary. Why girls would go to the extreme of a crash diet just to impress somebody else or to feel beautiful (when they already are). Why do faithful boys that sees the heart instead of the face seem to be soon-to-be extinct. Why do parents hold on to their kids so tight that when they let go, they are gonna fly so far.

And so much more.

But some things.. some things that no matter how many gazillion answers you give me,

It’s still left blank and questioned in me.

Every night i sit on my bed and think. When i wake up, i hide under my blanket and think. Whenever i bathe, i let the hot water gush down on me while i, think. Every time i’m alone in the bus, I look at random people here and there and i’ll start to think. The moment i step out of my house and look into the wonders of God’s creation, that’s when my thinking stops and i start to pray.

I love it when my boyfriend holds my hand and cuddle me because it makes me feel all warm and loved and smiley. I hope that’s the only thing that happens in life.

Hello 2010 (^^)

Happy New Year (:

ok you know what?

Time for resolutions.

1. Continue my high expectations of grades.
2. Continue to take friendships lightly. Nothing beyond goodfriends.
3. Continue to smile.
4. Continue to grow in Christ.
5. Continue to be nurtured on the 10th commandment.
6. Continue to learn to love myself more.
7. Continue to pray for the salvations of my loved and special ones.
8. Continue to be myself.
9. Continue to ignore.
10. Continue to pray for my enemies.

Wait a moment, are those even resolutions?

Anyhow, nothing is more important than my family, grandparents and boyfriend. Basically all my kins or kins-to-be.
Nobody or nothing else actually matters a lot to my life.
I am so much happier this way.

Because trust me, unconditional love is not something that normal people in your life can give to you.

Smile, and be yourself.

oh andddd. I deco my nails again!

(Ok you, dont irritate my pet peeve again. Seriously, there’s a limit to everything)

Anyway, i’ll post about my piggies up next

Bye, 2009

So today is my last day of work.

Auntie beehoon gave sheila and i presents and mine’s a strawberry pouch. ♥

2009 is ending in 1 hour time and i really, really, can’t wait to bid goodbye to 2009.

It had been the most happening year, but also the year that had gotten onto my nerves, pushed me to my limits and made me scream everynight and day.

Even so, God had used all that to teach me a lot of lessons, which can never, ever be put down to words. 2009 had been a race for me, every morning i anticipate on what’s going to happen next. I am seldom calm, and almost every minute new questions are popping up inside my mind. I had learnt to be happy. Like really, genuinely happy.

I thank everyone that had came in and out of my life this year. As you know, i am not really very sociable. I don’t believe in friends forever and i don’t really need a lot of friends around me. Because really, i can just live my life with God, Family, Boy and Babywong. 4 person and a meal a day to make me smile, others – they’re just a plus.

I thank those people who have hated and insulted me (I don’t really know much but i’m sure there are these people, be it behind my back or whatsoever) Because everytime such cases happen, i’ll be praying for these people inside my heart. To come to know God’s love and the importance of learning not to judge. And when i do this, I learn more about the wisdom of life. So thank you all.

I also thank those people who have loved and complimented me. You guys are my inspiration and it’s really heartwarming to know that there are such lovely angels around me. Proves to me that people like these have not yet extinct. Haha!

Ok. So this is just a post to say goodbye to this whole year.
Bye and…. have fun.

Let’s talk, shall we.

I think i’m kind of crazy.

It’s the last 4 days of 2009.

The year is ending and i’m not going to do anything out of the blues.

I hope this last 4 days would pass peacefully.

2009 is the first year that i find impossible to sum up.

1 year of mislead can change the me i had for 15 years.

Actually come to think of it, i don’t know how i got here either. It’s so surreal i feel like it’s all a nightmare. Just a nightmare that happened yesterday and when i wake up later, everything will be back to normal again.

I can hope.

I really thought my life used to be boring and expected. But now that i’ve went through all these crap, i really want my life i go back to how it used to be.
I really, really, miss the old me.
And moving on to year 2010, i’m sure, isin’t going to make things any better.

Sometimes i would get myself into regression and sit on my chair and try to feel the me i used to be, it feels all so great, i feel like i’m, me, again. But when i snap out of it, i just go back to what i am currently. It’s like i’m set on auto-mode. It’s like i have a second life but i don’t know which is the real one.

Locking myself up in my room, blasting songs, spamming my journal, spamming my wordpress, hours on tumblr.

What’s all that for?

To run away.

I can’t wait for 2009 to end, yet at the same time, i dread for 2010.

The only thing that had been strong and growing is my relationship with my boy.

Other stuffs going on in my life just keeps going up, and down, up, and down. Never constant throughout. It’s so tiring i’m almost out of breath.

Sometimes the thin line i’m holding on to can’t seem to take the weight of my burden… and my tears reflexly stream out just so that things could become lighter for the fragile line to continue supporting me. Just so that i won’t fall even at times (like this).

This year, I end my education in Secondary School.

I end having tuition which i’ve had for 8 years.

I end believing in friends forever.

I end my sane self.

I start to understand that our body is only temporary.

I start to learn that God helps those who help themselves.

I start to pray for my enemy.

I start to feel the importance of being happy.

I start to know what being beautiful means.

I start to become insane.

I start to let it take control of my life.

‘The real girls.’ Girls that had been through crap, that had faced all obstacles their hearts could take, that had cried a river and screamed their lungs out. And had stood here right before your eyes and say “I’m okay.”

Remember. Our body is only temporary. But our soul is eternal.

I really dislike the sentence “Till death do us apart” Because really, even death cannot bring us apart.

Once you have Christ in your heart, we shall all reunite in heaven, where things are an infinity times better.

Over there… i don’t have to worry about anything else anymore..

Deep down in your conscience at the back of your heart, lies the truth only U know.

You are the best version of yourself.

God gave you a life TO LIVE IT TO YOUR OWN INGENUITY, SO DO IT.

No point doing things just cause other people has it/does it, trust me, you’ll be much happier otherwise.

I won’t be making any changes whatsoever (like i usually do) because i really, really, want you to go back to your own track. With your own conscience.

Ps. I really wouldn’t mind if you’d been sensible enough to at least ask first.

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Ok. I kind of cooled down. Usually i would delete the entire post and forget about it. But this time i guess i really need to leave it up so that things wouldn’t happen again.

I am not a small-minded person. But there are just some things that i can’t tolerate. (Pet peeves, get it)

And when it happens, no matter how hard i try to be positive, i just can’t. You don’t have to be my enemy, even people i am neutral/good with, could piss me off doing it.

It’s really significant to me even though it might be trivial to others.

If you know i hate it, and i can’t tolerate it like others could or like you expect me to, then please, don’t do it.

The last thing i want to happen is you denying (like im sure you would) and creating a defensive commotion for something that you, from the bottom of your heart, know that you have done.

It’s shameful. So shameful.

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Jesus, Happy Birthday.

Merry Christmas!